Like drops into water Expanding the consciousness of my soul I am listening to the music inside The symphony of silence That ricochets Opening my consciousness Warm embraces Elements frisky Calling down the Goddess Moon To take away my hurts And swoon Within the Sacred Circle I am Home I know though it appears so I am not alone Presence swirling Head to toe Third eye swelling As my Divinity grows Blessings filling me From my Crown to Root A rising love That with my direction shoots Into the heart of us All Into the heart of us All For within My Sacred Space There are none I have to chase Love spiralling in all Directions Will linger on in my Reflections Of my Sacred Space
I just had a CRAZY switch up of energy. I went from super high on life, happy go lucky, positive and expectant. To shit hits the fan freaking out balling my eyes out. And I ask myself,how do I keep my cool through that? How am I sitting here now singing devotional music and smiling and letting it not bring me down? My answer to myself is, by the grace of the Goddess and by the grace of the loving Sisters I have around me. Those who are there for me in the low times and the high times. The support systems and all the self work I have done to train myself how to handle these situations.
At first I thought, oh I will just wallow in it and be all self destructive. Thankfully due to the amazing supportive Sisters I have around me and my own inner strength, that did NOT happen. Not even for like an hour. I nipped that crap in the bud. Taking five deep breaths, laying on the Earth Mother and remembering that ALL IS WELL ALL IS WELL. Despite illusions ALL IS WELL. That the sand get's kicked up so we can just relax and watch it settle. Sometimes things blow up before they get better. Like when you are hung over and take a puke and then everything is roses and junk food again :P KIDDING. But seriously....it works. I feel blessed right now because I know that I can handle situations like this one. I can stay centred and focused on the TRUTH of the situation and not get stuck on the details. I know that I am always protected, connected, and whole. That "bad" things only seem bad until the blessing in disguise is delivered.
Whether it is in the form of a new opportunity or idea. Sometimes people just need to agree to scrap it and start over. I remind myself that my world is a never ending hallway of open doors. Because I CHOOSE it to be so. So here's to infinite trust, wisdom, strength, surrender, and LOVE. I let all be as it should be. No expectations, no worries. Just Love. Whatever happens, only LOVE is real.
And besides I can only make myself happy and help myself. I can only help others if they are willing to do the work on themselves too. So let it be as it should be, and so it is. )O( <3
Greeting gorgeous souls, So many experiences in the last couple of years that were uncomfortable, were directly related to my relationship with myself. I have learned that whatever I see in another is a reflection of a part of me in that moment. It has definitely been a journey to understanding my feelings and having compassion for myself.
Too much in life I think people, myself included, rely on external sources for validation or self worth. The reality of that situation is that no one will ever truly be able to judge you for they are not you and cannot see all of the lessons your soul has learned. Whether seeking approval from peers, partners, parents, or society on a grander scale, I really have to say that it is a lost cause. I have often fallen into the trap of resentment and severe anger towards people and situations because I felt they were not perceiving me as I really am. Or even appreciating me or my blossoming purpose due to closed mindedness and lack of understanding. RESEARCH. The kicker is that I would adopt their beliefs or feelings until I could shake myself out of it and realize that the only approval I need is from within. The further I go along on my path of self love I truly realize that none of it matters. The more time that I spend working on myself and finding the courage to be myself fully, the less I care about what others think. The tough part is that sometimes the people who don't understand or judge are family or close friends. At times I have to remind myself that my rapid changes seem even more rapid to people who are not with me all of the time or in my head space/frequency bracket.
I have to remind myself that as I continue to grow and heal I will not resonate so well with those I used to resonate with. ~ Holy Shift~ Sometimes it's people that I truly love and cherish, but I know that I need not be close with everyone all the time. Friendships grow and take on new shape and sizes as young adults grow and bravely become who they truly are. I admit sometimes I can get rather irritated due to comments or "advice" that is really not in alignment with who I am, nor is it appreciated.
People generally have good intentions when they begin to project their own fears and lack of understanding or faith at me. Everyone has an opinion and everyone has advice. Sometimes it is just so worth it so say You know what? Screw that! I don't need to listen to anything anyone else says...and begin to TRUST THE WISDOM WITHIN.
I know that everyone who truly loves and accepts me will just learn to live with who I AM and who I AM becoming... or not. And that is fine too because one door closes before another opens. And I'm standing in an infinite hall of wide open doors - because I choose to be - Recently I had a long conversation with a friend about seeing the darkness in people, their bad intentions. This really stumped me and shook me out of my - everyone is good inside truly- head space. I began to question my own "judgement" of character in people. The conversation bothered me for days until I came to the conclusion that for one : I trust myself fully , I am awake and aware. And two: All that we see in others is a reflection of ourselves. I realized that this was not -MY- reflection. While I am aware of the fact that everybody has an Ego and the struggle that comes with that, I am also privy to the fact that having inner struggles with feelings and emotions is NOT the test of someone's character. The true test and success is in what the Soul CHOOSES to do with those feelings and emotions. I am blessed to have friends and family that challenge me to find my own truth and feelings and not to rely on what anyone else says. I truly feel thankful for that specific lesson because it has shifted my relationship to any kind of experience like that. It is not always easy to stay true to my own beliefs when others challenge them. The conclusion I came to is that, the joy, freedom, and expansion that comes as a result of staying true to myself is so worth it. Lesson learned. Next. Hahaha..joking. People are always going to have their own ideas about how you live your life. People are always going to be projecting their shit onto you until they learn to deal with their own issues and you learn to laugh it off a little. I truly love and appreciate all of the challenges that have come my way these last few months, as they have shown me that I am my own source of infinite wisdom. What others do, think, say, or feel is not my concern. Other's opinions say more about themselves then they do about you so just relax a little into your crazy, beautiful, wonderful self. And so will I. ^_^ Break free & Just Be
My name is Onyx Marigold and I am so stoked to finally have my blog together. I guess what I would like to do first is give everyone a little introduction to who I am and set some intentions for this blog. I am a soul on the journey, evolving, growing, changing, messing shit up, and learning how to love myself. I was born and raised in Southern Ontario. Many experiences in my life have left me wondering who I AM and why I chose to incarnate in this time. Around 2010 I "woke up" spiritually and found I have many gifts. I am a teacher, a healer, a listener, a student, a singer, a Prophet of Love & Light...and so much more. This journey I am on is teaching me that my worthiness is not connected to any of the roles I play in this time space reality. I am learning to uncover my true identity, LOVE. To love myself just for being me and not getting down on myself about what I am doing,(I can be a very horrid self critic when I don't live up to my at times impossible standards). I have been on a mission to share my gifts with the world lately. It took a lot of courage and self love to even get to the point of believing I can share my creativity and healing. I love to write poetry, song lyrics, and invocations to the Divine. I also adore singing and dancing, and am recently taking up painting for fun!
I am enthusiastic and fully immersed in energy & natural healing. I have been practising the art of Reiki - Spiritually Guided Life Force Energy- since early 2011, and I find it to be extremely rewarding. Reiki allows me to share my tender heart space love for the Universe and all it's inhabitants, whilst opening my mind and heart to new possibilities. Reiki has been an amazing mobilizing aspect of my own personal healing from sexual abuse and wonky self image & care. Natural healing has helped me to find my voice and speak my truths. I am proud to say I am firmly rooted in acceptance, forgiveness, and self love. *YEY* My focus here in this time space reality is to be of service to the Divine and to my Brothers & Sisters, and Reiki is a wonderful tool that assists me in doing just that. While on an AMAZING journey with a soul sister I found the inner strength and courage to believe in myself and to share. I have many plans creatively for the next few months-years. I intend to buy my own recording equipment to capture my heartfelt journey reflections through song. Many an e-book has been pondered as well. I feel there will be poetry books as well as works based on topics that interest and inspire me. Which is partly why I am making this blog. My intention is to channel my creativity into wonderful articles and posts that reflect my own experience and life lessons, so that I can share them with those who will benefit and resonate. Thank you for being HERE & NOW We are all gorgeously talented beings with a purpose
