So you've decided to dedicate yourself to seriously improving and maintaining your spiritual evolution?

     Blessings hello.  Today I am enjoying the changes and the newness in my life.  It is funny how things work out and how this evolutionary journey keeps taking on a new form, a new level.  In May of 2010 I decided to seriously dedicate my existence to my spiritual evolution and up keep.  It was a spur of the moment decision, filled with passion and spiritual zeal.  I said to myself, Onyx, it is time to be more.  It is time to drop the ego fully and be of service to the Goddess.  To be a healing force of love in this changing time.  I was excited, full of serious commitment.  And I had no idea how much work goes into dropping the ego, aligning with my worthiness, and invoking my true creator power.  I had to face all the darkness and the demons within me, and that wasn't easy.  But because of my decision and my reunion with Spirit, I survived.  Not only did I survive the demons of my own negativity, I THRIVED, and let my past experiences come into the light.  I yearned for MORE. More of this blessed feeling.  I suppose my brother wasn't joking the first night I asked him about Astral Projection and past lives.  He said, Once you open that door it will never close.  But I was sure!  I was ready.  I had the taste of something MORE, of something worth living for.  LOVE.  As if all this time my eyes had been closed to the truth of my life experience, and as I peeked through the veil for the first time in many years on this earth, as I entertained the idea that I could be more, and even still, I could be important to the evolution of Humanity, of Gaia, I could finally see.  I could make a real difference just by healing and taking real responsibility for my life.  Everything shifted.  The things I used to spend my time doing, seemed meaningless.  I wanted to better myself.  I wanted to heal so that I could help others to heal.  What I am learning now is that it is an ongoing journey.  A cycle of awareness, acceptance, integration, and then the test of the lessons learned in future experiences.  It evolves as I do. The journey of the Sage, of the Wise Woman, Priestess, and Healer, is one of constant evolution and change.  When one cycle of healing is over, another deeper, more intense one begins.  And I am okay with that.  I am at peace with that.  I am excited to see where this journey takes me.  Knowing it is not to any end that matters.  For an ending is really just another beginning.  Knowing that it is the journey that holds all of the love, all of the power, all of the magick, and all of the beauty.  I am okay with myself right where I am because I know that tomorrow, again, I will grow.  I am breathing in the blessings of this journey.  Good Journey.

 ~ Onyx Marigold
Daughter Of Isis 

     Reflection is good stuff :) <3 When I take a moment to reflect I realize how hard I can be on myself for no apparent reason.  I have high hopes, many dreams, and a LOT of creative projects on the mind.  I can become very negative and overwhelmed at the amount of things I want to do.  I don't even know where to start half the time so I just start everything, and then become annoyed because I'm not FINISHING anything.  So, I just realized something in my five minute mirror pow wow pep talk(yes I totally do affirmations in the mirror, super powerful!!!), I am an INFINITE BEING.  

     I have INFINITE TIME to complete the tasks I set out for myself.  I don't have to do everything today.  I don't even have to do everything this YEAR.  All that matters is that I am happy, at peace, prosperous in my own way, and proud of myself for all the self work I have done in the last three years.  I have realized at times I set SUPER ridiculous expectations on myself.  I am not going to complete an album, three novels, create a prosperous and harmonic healing business, and become a Mom, all in a month.  HAHAHAHA.  Sometimes though, I think that is what really gets to me. 

      I just want to complete projects and receive my worth back INSTANTANEOUSLY.  And even though things are moving faster than ever before, let's be honest here, it takes a little while for things to manifest in the world of matter.  It's not that we aren't powerful enough to create more and more instant manifestations.  It's just the fact that we would probably get overwhelmed.  

     My Soul is ready for things that this vehicle, temple of my soul if you will, is just not ready for, or at least not all at once.  So, here's to dropping ridiculous expectations and allowing myself to dance in the ecstatic moment that is NOW!         

Here's to loving myself for being right where I am, instead of hating on myself for not being where I want to be.  I am at peace.  I have all of the tools within me.  I am a growing being of Love.  I am a free flowing infinite being of pure Soul potential.  There is a drive in me that will not give up.  There is a hunger in me for a Spiritual life of Success and Abundance.  I wont back down, I will not give up.  I will be infinitely patient and loving with myself, and Like the great MJ said,  "Don't stop till you get enough!" <3

 ~ Onyx Marigold
Daughter Of Isis 

In response to all the fears, negativity, and reality of the destruction in the world.

Howdy all,

     Sooooo, this just poured out of me as a response to a friend's facebook post.  I feel like sharing:

I realized something that I KNOW....we are constantly 

CREATING our reality. The future is tangible and always

 changing, and it is a direct result of what we think , feel, 

and say in the NOW moment. Sure, there are lots of awful 

things going on, and the first step is being aware and 

accepting of that. THEN we get to decide how things shift 

from here. It's hard to know how, and its even harder to 

know when. But , there is one thing I know, so long as there 

are positive, spiritual, loving (same thing really to me 

spirituality=love), and proactive CREATORS, (not reactive 

victims), the world as we know it has a chance to change 

drastically. The darkest hour comes before the dawn

darling. The great part is, that we are NEVER in this alone. 

All we have to do is stay in heart centre, act as we wish to 

be treated and let God figure out the hows and whens. I am 

content just being an instrument of peace in my own way in 

my own life. Not one person can do EVERYTHING, and 

everyone can do something to make a change. So yes, 

spread the word, the awareness, and let's not get down 

about how things are. Actually, the anger, the fear, the 

recognition of destruction is important to the cycle and it 

has its place in the scheme of things. What is more

important in my humble opinion is what we can DO to enact 

change and positive growth in all areas of human birth, life, 

and transitory time (death). I feel it is sooooooooo sooo 

important to do what we can individually to "be the change 

we wish to see in the world". Whether that means on the 

spiritual side of things , on the technical side of things, or 

the humanitarian side of things. I KNOW we create our 

future. So let's take some of God's advice here and fear 

not shall we? Let's create something beautiful, something 

joyful, and something that is a celebration of life, of 

Divinity, God, or whatever you believe. It's difficult to 

remain positive all the time, but that's why we have friends, 

family, nature, and God to remind us.



   ~ Onyx Marigold
Daughter Of Isis