Blood Sacredness

Aloha, Merry Meet,
It has definitely been some time since I caught up on this blog. So much is changing in my life so rapidly.  It's all I can do to stay in gratitude and flow with it all.  I will let the words and art fill in the gaps as too much so fast is taking form.  Manifesting the life I've always known I deserve.  Letting go and letting flow.  So much to heal and to release.  All this joy to embrace and co create.  Today I am reflecting on the Sacredness of the Female Cycle.  The Moon, the Menstrual, the Medicine of the Wombyn.
     In times of Ancients and Ways of the Old, The Moon cycle was a a time honored and respected for cleansing and purifying.  Men considered interacting with Wombyn at that time to be unclean and separated themselves from the Menstruating Wombyn.  
     The actual Sacredness of this most precious Feminine Mystery was just that, a mystery to Men.  Wombyn of many cultures and spiritual traditions segregated themselves during their Moon time to connect deeply to the earth.  In Red tents some Wombyn sang songs of creation, Honoring the Goddess of Ten Thousand names.  Isis, Anat, Ashera, Innana.  Giving their Sacred medicine back to the Earth Mother.  Allowing themselves the deep Medicine of bleeding directly onto the Earth Herself.  Wombyn were given time to align themselves fully with Mother Earth for healing, for release, for regeneration.

     In Modern times most Wombyn are rejected the Divine right to know the Sacredness of their Moon Cycles.  Wombyn everywhere are expected to carry on with their daily duties and responsibilities, never given the chance to uncover the Mystery of their own Blood Medicine.  I must say that I deeply respect the Ways of the Old, and believe that taking time to honor the Cycle and the deep connection to the Earth Mother for healing is pertinent to having a Healthy Moon cycle and Intuitive proficiency.  Though, too, I respect the Ways of the Modern world.  Like all things, We Wombyn must strive for a balance.
     Gone are the days of Old, gone are the days of feeling unclean or unholy for the blessing of our Cycles.  It is my deepest wish that Wombyn everywhere know their Sacredness.  Know that their blood holds precious life giving, healing, and SACRED information.  My Inner Knowing KNOWS that our Blood truly is Medicine and in this time of rebirth it is of utmost importance to return this Sacredness back to the Earth.  For our blood leaks onto the Earth, seeps into the Grid, heals the pathways to Gaia's love and aids with Ascension.

     Our Blood is Sacred and demands to be respected.  The Goddess emerges now, in Her full Glory.  Sharing Her Medicine with us all.  We, the living Goddesses, Wombyn of all cultures, all creeds, all spiritual paths and religions, are holding the flame of the Divine Feminine.  We must hold this position of POWER with Honor, with Grace, with Compassion, and with full Understanding and Recognition of our SACREDNESS.  For now is the time that we join in unison, raising our voices, our Kundilini, our Love for all of creation, and yes, Our Diva cups full of Sacred Medicine, and emptying all of this into the Earth that we walk upon, the Earth that we eat, breathe, live, and return to.

 We are Powerful, We are Sacred, We are The Ones We have been Waiting For. 

Wombyn Unite.

Never Forget This

Infinity

Onyx Marigold
Daughter Of Isis


Thank you to Shylah Ray Sunshine for the reminder and for the blessing ~ 

Bliss Train Lame

Trying to make sense of what I am feeling
But what sense is there in a world full of meaning
Everything is upside down
I keep starting at square one
Stop 
Freeze
Pounce
Retreat
All of this seems like a feat
I am winning
I am Won
One with the life force inside of me
Just trying to navigate this world of reason and emotion
How physical things take on motion
I know that when I listen deeply within 
All the answers are revealed
I have to admit you’ve shaken me up
And now I don’t know which way is left or right
Which way leads to you or myself
There Is so much I need to do
Cultivate
Integrate
Self sufficiency 
I will not compromise
I  am a fully empowered Goddess
I must support myself
This love has got me thinking
And I hate when my mind starts ticking
Overriding Intuition
I will not allow
Part of me wants to give it up before I start
But I am patient
Been patient so long
I will not compromise this Crown
I have bled for years to find this 
Salvation
Because 
I AM the ONE
I am not waiting
All is now
Dearest Angels Show Me How ~

Regaining Sacredness After Abuse


Many Women experience feelings of inadequacy and self doubt.
Sure some of these feelings are due to the media etc.
The feelings I am speaking about however are long lasting impressions that sabotage a woman’s life as she heals from 
Sexual Abuse.
In my personal experience 
Feelings of unworthiness and an inability to truly live up to the potential within, lingered on for years.
It is as if a part of myself believed or feared that my Sacredness was erased.
That I was unclean and damaged goods.
Even after not believing in God.
Being Agnostic.
Being confused.
Being Angry.
Being hopeful.
Being Awakened to great love within.
And now after fifteen years I can finally bring this to the surface.
I can finally express this in hopes to free myself, and others from this terrible feeling.
Lately I am constantly needing to remind myself that 
My Sacredness was not erased for I am
Sacred
In ever way.
The Goddess will heal all of our wounds.
Remind us that we are her Daughters too.
Divine and blessed 
Sacred Feminine.
We are the Great love
Within.
We will be heard and Nurtured too.
For we are the Women who have Nurtured you.
And our Daughters will heal the World.
With their Sacred Love
That Awakens the
Divine Masculine Within
You.
The Goddess rises.
Do you feel her flight?
The Sacredness in 
You
Is alive and well.
Breathing Heaven into this
Earth.
For we are the Daughters who perform
Sacred Birth.


We are beautiful.
We are whole.
We are SACRED.

Nothing and NO ONE can erase
The Divinity
WE ARE 

~ Onyx Marigold
 Daughter Of Isis

So you've decided to dedicate yourself to seriously improving and maintaining your spiritual evolution?

     Blessings hello.  Today I am enjoying the changes and the newness in my life.  It is funny how things work out and how this evolutionary journey keeps taking on a new form, a new level.  In May of 2010 I decided to seriously dedicate my existence to my spiritual evolution and up keep.  It was a spur of the moment decision, filled with passion and spiritual zeal.  I said to myself, Onyx, it is time to be more.  It is time to drop the ego fully and be of service to the Goddess.  To be a healing force of love in this changing time.  I was excited, full of serious commitment.  And I had no idea how much work goes into dropping the ego, aligning with my worthiness, and invoking my true creator power.  I had to face all the darkness and the demons within me, and that wasn't easy.  But because of my decision and my reunion with Spirit, I survived.  Not only did I survive the demons of my own negativity, I THRIVED, and let my past experiences come into the light.  I yearned for MORE. More of this blessed feeling.  I suppose my brother wasn't joking the first night I asked him about Astral Projection and past lives.  He said, Once you open that door it will never close.  But I was sure!  I was ready.  I had the taste of something MORE, of something worth living for.  LOVE.  As if all this time my eyes had been closed to the truth of my life experience, and as I peeked through the veil for the first time in many years on this earth, as I entertained the idea that I could be more, and even still, I could be important to the evolution of Humanity, of Gaia, I could finally see.  I could make a real difference just by healing and taking real responsibility for my life.  Everything shifted.  The things I used to spend my time doing, seemed meaningless.  I wanted to better myself.  I wanted to heal so that I could help others to heal.  What I am learning now is that it is an ongoing journey.  A cycle of awareness, acceptance, integration, and then the test of the lessons learned in future experiences.  It evolves as I do. The journey of the Sage, of the Wise Woman, Priestess, and Healer, is one of constant evolution and change.  When one cycle of healing is over, another deeper, more intense one begins.  And I am okay with that.  I am at peace with that.  I am excited to see where this journey takes me.  Knowing it is not to any end that matters.  For an ending is really just another beginning.  Knowing that it is the journey that holds all of the love, all of the power, all of the magick, and all of the beauty.  I am okay with myself right where I am because I know that tomorrow, again, I will grow.  I am breathing in the blessings of this journey.  Good Journey.

 ~ Onyx Marigold
Daughter Of Isis 

     Reflection is good stuff :) <3 When I take a moment to reflect I realize how hard I can be on myself for no apparent reason.  I have high hopes, many dreams, and a LOT of creative projects on the mind.  I can become very negative and overwhelmed at the amount of things I want to do.  I don't even know where to start half the time so I just start everything, and then become annoyed because I'm not FINISHING anything.  So, I just realized something in my five minute mirror pow wow pep talk(yes I totally do affirmations in the mirror, super powerful!!!), I am an INFINITE BEING.  

     I have INFINITE TIME to complete the tasks I set out for myself.  I don't have to do everything today.  I don't even have to do everything this YEAR.  All that matters is that I am happy, at peace, prosperous in my own way, and proud of myself for all the self work I have done in the last three years.  I have realized at times I set SUPER ridiculous expectations on myself.  I am not going to complete an album, three novels, create a prosperous and harmonic healing business, and become a Mom, all in a month.  HAHAHAHA.  Sometimes though, I think that is what really gets to me. 

      I just want to complete projects and receive my worth back INSTANTANEOUSLY.  And even though things are moving faster than ever before, let's be honest here, it takes a little while for things to manifest in the world of matter.  It's not that we aren't powerful enough to create more and more instant manifestations.  It's just the fact that we would probably get overwhelmed.  

     My Soul is ready for things that this vehicle, temple of my soul if you will, is just not ready for, or at least not all at once.  So, here's to dropping ridiculous expectations and allowing myself to dance in the ecstatic moment that is NOW!         

Here's to loving myself for being right where I am, instead of hating on myself for not being where I want to be.  I am at peace.  I have all of the tools within me.  I am a growing being of Love.  I am a free flowing infinite being of pure Soul potential.  There is a drive in me that will not give up.  There is a hunger in me for a Spiritual life of Success and Abundance.  I wont back down, I will not give up.  I will be infinitely patient and loving with myself, and Like the great MJ said,  "Don't stop till you get enough!" <3

 ~ Onyx Marigold
Daughter Of Isis 

In response to all the fears, negativity, and reality of the destruction in the world.

Howdy all,

     Sooooo, this just poured out of me as a response to a friend's facebook post.  I feel like sharing:

I realized something that I KNOW....we are constantly 

CREATING our reality. The future is tangible and always

 changing, and it is a direct result of what we think , feel, 

and say in the NOW moment. Sure, there are lots of awful 

things going on, and the first step is being aware and 

accepting of that. THEN we get to decide how things shift 

from here. It's hard to know how, and its even harder to 

know when. But , there is one thing I know, so long as there 

are positive, spiritual, loving (same thing really to me 

spirituality=love), and proactive CREATORS, (not reactive 

victims), the world as we know it has a chance to change 

drastically. The darkest hour comes before the dawn

darling. The great part is, that we are NEVER in this alone. 

All we have to do is stay in heart centre, act as we wish to 

be treated and let God figure out the hows and whens. I am 

content just being an instrument of peace in my own way in 

my own life. Not one person can do EVERYTHING, and 

everyone can do something to make a change. So yes, 

spread the word, the awareness, and let's not get down 

about how things are. Actually, the anger, the fear, the 

recognition of destruction is important to the cycle and it 

has its place in the scheme of things. What is more

important in my humble opinion is what we can DO to enact 

change and positive growth in all areas of human birth, life, 

and transitory time (death). I feel it is sooooooooo sooo 

important to do what we can individually to "be the change 

we wish to see in the world". Whether that means on the 

spiritual side of things , on the technical side of things, or 

the humanitarian side of things. I KNOW we create our 

future. So let's take some of God's advice here and fear 

not shall we? Let's create something beautiful, something 

joyful, and something that is a celebration of life, of 

Divinity, God, or whatever you believe. It's difficult to 

remain positive all the time, but that's why we have friends, 

family, nature, and God to remind us.



   ~ Onyx Marigold
Daughter Of Isis

Sacred Space...a sneak peak at a poem in my upcomming Goddess E Book :)

Sacred Space

Incense rising
Candles burning
Dripping wax

Like drops into water
Expanding the consciousness of my soul
I am listening to the music inside
The symphony of silence
That ricochets 
Opening my consciousness
Warm embraces
Elements frisky
Calling down the 
Goddess Moon
To take away my hurts
 And swoon
Within the Sacred Circle
I am Home
I know though it appears so
I am not alone
Presence swirling
Head to toe
Third eye swelling
As my Divinity grows
Blessings filling me
From my Crown to Root
A rising love
That with my direction shoots
Into the heart of us All
Into the heart of us All
For within 
My Sacred Space
There are none 
I have to chase
Love spiralling in all 
Directions
Will linger on in my 
Reflections
Of my 
Sacred Space

~Amen~



~ Onyx Marigold
Daughter Of Isis

Keeping calm through the shit storm

I just had a CRAZY switch up of energy. I went from super high on life, happy go lucky, positive and expectant.  To shit hits the fan freaking out balling my eyes out.  And I ask myself,how do I keep my cool through that?  How am I sitting here now singing devotional music and smiling and letting it not bring me down?  My answer to myself is, by the grace of the Goddess and by the grace of the loving Sisters I have around me.  Those who are there for me in the low times and the high times.  The support systems and all the self work I have done to train myself how to handle these situations. 

     At first I thought, oh I will just wallow in it and be all self destructive.  Thankfully due to the amazing supportive Sisters I have around me and my own inner strength, that did NOT happen.  Not even for like an hour.  I nipped that crap in the bud.  
     Taking five deep breaths, laying on the Earth Mother and remembering that ALL IS WELL ALL IS WELL.  Despite illusions ALL IS WELL.  That the sand get's kicked up so we can just relax and watch it settle.  Sometimes things blow up before they get better.  
     Like when you are hung over and take a puke and then everything is roses and junk food again :P KIDDING.  But seriously....it works.  I feel blessed right now because I know that I can handle situations like this one.  
     I can stay centred and focused on the TRUTH of the situation and not get stuck on the details.  I know that I am always protected, connected, and whole.  That "bad" things only seem bad until the blessing in disguise is delivered.  

     Whether it is in the form of a new opportunity or idea.  Sometimes people just need to agree to scrap it and start over.  I remind myself that my world is a never ending hallway of open doors.  Because I CHOOSE it to be so.                  
     So here's to infinite trust, wisdom, strength, surrender, and LOVE.  I let all be as it should be.  No expectations, no  worries. Just Love.  Whatever happens, only LOVE is real.  

And besides I can only make myself happy and help myself.  I can only help others if they are willing to do the work on themselves too.  So let it be as it should be, and so it is. )O(  <3 


 ~ Onyx Marigold
Daughter Of Isis

Self love and freeing the self from projections and reflections in others

Greeting gorgeous souls,
                                          So many experiences in the last couple of years that were uncomfortable, were directly related to my relationship with myself.  I have learned that whatever I see in another is a reflection of a part of me in that moment.  It has definitely been a journey to understanding my feelings and having compassion for myself.

     Too much in life I think people, myself included, rely on external sources for validation or self worth.  The reality of that situation is that no one will ever truly be able to judge you for they are not you and cannot see all of the lessons your soul has learned.  Whether seeking approval from peers, partners, parents, or society on a grander scale, I really have to say that it is a lost cause.  I have often fallen into the trap of resentment and severe anger towards people and situations because I felt they were not perceiving me as I really am.   Or even appreciating me or my blossoming purpose due to closed mindedness and lack of understanding. RESEARCH.  The kicker is that I would adopt their beliefs or feelings until I could shake myself out of it and realize that the only approval I need is from within.
     The further I go along on my path of self love I truly realize that none of it matters.  The more time that I spend working on myself and finding the courage to be myself fully, the less I care about what others think.  The tough part is that sometimes the people who don't understand or judge are family or close friends.  At times I have to remind myself that my rapid changes seem even more rapid to people who are not with me all of the time or in my head space/frequency bracket.    

     I have to remind myself that as I continue to grow and heal I will not resonate so well with those I used to resonate with.  ~ Holy Shift~  Sometimes it's people that I truly love and cherish, but I know that I need not be close with everyone all the time.  Friendships grow and take on new shape and sizes as young adults grow and bravely become who they truly are.  I admit sometimes I can get rather irritated due to comments or "advice" that is really not in alignment with who I am, nor is it appreciated.

      People generally have good intentions when they begin to project their own fears and lack of understanding or faith at me.  Everyone has an opinion and everyone has advice.  Sometimes it is just so worth it so say You know what? Screw that!  I don't need to listen to anything anyone else says...and begin to TRUST THE WISDOM WITHIN.

     I know that everyone who truly loves and accepts me will just learn to live with who I AM and who I AM becoming... or not.  And that is fine too because one door closes before another opens.  And I'm standing in an infinite hall of wide open doors - because I choose to be - 
     Recently I had a long conversation with a friend about seeing the darkness in people, their bad intentions.  This really stumped me and shook me out of my - everyone is good inside truly- head space.  I began to question my own "judgement" of character in people.  The conversation bothered me for days until I came to the conclusion that for one : I trust myself fully , I am awake and aware.  And two:  All that we see in others is a reflection of ourselves.  I realized that this was not -MY- reflection. While I am aware of the fact that everybody has an Ego and the struggle that comes with that, I am also privy to the fact that having inner struggles with feelings and emotions is NOT the test of someone's character. The true test and success is in what the Soul CHOOSES to do with those feelings and emotions.
     I am blessed to have friends and family that challenge me to find my own truth and feelings and not to rely on what anyone else says.  I truly feel thankful for that specific lesson because it has shifted my relationship to any kind of experience like that.  It is not always easy to stay true to my own beliefs when others challenge them.  The conclusion I came to is that, the joy, freedom, and expansion that comes as a result of staying true to myself is so worth it.  Lesson learned.  Next.  Hahaha..joking.
     People are always going to have their own ideas about how you live your life.  People are always going to be projecting their shit onto you until they learn to deal with their own issues and you learn to laugh it off a little.  I truly love and appreciate all of the challenges that have come my way these last few months, as they have shown me that I am my own source of infinite wisdom.  What others do, think, say, or feel is not my concern.  Other's opinions say more about themselves then they do about you so just relax a little into your crazy, beautiful, wonderful self. And so will I.  ^_^ 

Break free & Just Be

Onyx Marigold
Daughter of Isis

Hey Hi Hello

Hey , hi, hello there :)

     My name is Onyx Marigold and I am so stoked to finally have my blog together.  I guess what I would like to do first is give everyone a little introduction to who I am and set some intentions for this blog.
     I am a soul on the journey, evolving, growing, changing, messing shit up, and learning how to love myself.  I was born and raised in Southern Ontario.  Many experiences in my life have left me wondering who I AM and why I chose to incarnate in this time.  Around 2010 I "woke up" spiritually and found I have many gifts.  I am a teacher, a healer, a listener, a student, a singer, a Prophet of Love & Light...and so much more.  
     This journey I am on is teaching me that my worthiness is not connected to any of the roles I play in this time space reality.  I am learning to uncover my true identity, LOVE.  To love myself just for being me and not getting down on myself about what I am doing,(I can be a very horrid self critic when I don't live up to my at times impossible standards).  I have been on a mission to share my gifts with the world lately.  It took a lot of courage and self love to even get to the point of believing I can share my creativity and healing.  I love to write poetry, song lyrics, and invocations to the Divine.  I also adore singing and dancing, and am recently taking up painting for fun!  

     I am enthusiastic and fully immersed in energy & natural healing.  I have been practising the art of Reiki - Spiritually Guided Life Force Energy- since early 2011, and I find it to be extremely rewarding.  Reiki allows me to share my tender heart space love for the Universe and all it's inhabitants, whilst opening my mind and heart to new possibilities.  Reiki has been an amazing mobilizing aspect of my own personal healing from sexual abuse and wonky self image & care.  Natural healing has helped me to find my voice and speak my truths.  I am proud to say I am firmly rooted in acceptance, forgiveness, and self love. *YEY*  My focus here in this time space reality is to be of service to the Divine and to my Brothers & Sisters, and Reiki is a wonderful tool that assists me in doing just that.  
     While on an AMAZING journey with a soul sister I found the inner strength and courage to believe in myself and to share.  I have many plans creatively for the next few months-years.  I intend to buy my own recording equipment to capture my  heartfelt journey reflections through song.  Many an e-book has been pondered as well.  I feel there will be poetry books as well as works based on topics that interest and inspire me.  Which is partly why I am making this blog.  My intention is to channel my creativity into wonderful articles and posts that reflect my own experience and life lessons, so that I can share them with those who will benefit and resonate.

Thank you for being HERE & NOW
We are all gorgeously talented beings with a purpose




Onyx Marigold - Daughter of Isis


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